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feel moody

feel really moody.. one of my students would say ‘emo’ short for emotional.. very tired.. and  some plans i had in my head didn’t work out.. went to NIE alone to submit my MC.. took train.. sigh.. i felt really down. it’s not supposed to be like this. and my application for leave for the Melbourne trip was not approved.. i went NIE to  send in an appeal for request for leave. sigh.. i’m tired of fighting against things i cannot change. you said you would support me but it was all lip service. i’m not going to do anything else if my leave is still not appproved. i’ve tried and things don’t work out.

lost a pillar, verbal sparring partner and confidante

i don’t think things will be the same as before. i’m really sad. i feel like i’ve lost my good friend; my pillar of strength, my verbal sparring partner and my confidante. i always get what i want in our group of 3. but now.. i can’t anymore.

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i know it’s time for you to go.. but it’s so difficult to let you go

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my uncle who had been in nuh icu finally breathed his last this afternoon after 3 to 4 weeks of struggling to stay alive. he was such a good man we all know at this point God loves him so much that He took him away. it’s not going to be the same without him. i think that his influence on people is vast and his absence will be greatly felt.. but most importantly, he would be remembered for his kindness, optimistic attitude, thoughtfulness, humour and warmth… he’s the best uncle i’ve ever had and i look up to him as a role model – he was such a loving father and responsible family man. he went beyond his duties to help other people who were in need. he was always so thoughtful, warm and funny.. we all look forward to hari raya because we’ll spend hours at his place and he would be playing the videos from the previous hari raya.. and he would organize a hari raya poem competition where each family was suppposed to come up with a poem and recite it in front of the camera.. we would make funny poems and he would play the video recordings of the other families’ on the tv to see whose poem was best..

i’m really upset.. i don’t think he knew how much influence he has on me.. and how much i looked up to him.. he is definitely the best uncle .. his words are always kind and encouraging. he never failed to make me feel good about myself ..

my worry now is whether my aunt and cousin can cope without him. i pity my aunt cos right now all her children are still schooling.. and she’s the only one bringing the money home. i hope things will be fine and that they’ll get through this difficult period.

thank you pak cik usop for all the kindness you’ve shown me. thank you for your encouragement and thank you for believing in me. i will never forget you.

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we won’t know what’s ahead

life works in most mysterious ways.. one day you are in the pink of health and suddenly you can be diagnosed with a terminal disease. my favourite uncle.. he’s always been a positive person.. his whole being exudes positivity.. since i was young, he always tells me that i can go far in life and that i have potential.. and when he knew of any of my achievements, how big or small he would make a big thing out of it.. and he always tell my other cousins to emulate me.. he makes me feel as if i did good.. as if i can be a role model.. and cos he believed.. i started to believe.. i never knew his influence on me.. until i heard that he had brain tumour. the thought of losing him as a role model, and uncle.. he’s such a nice man..

his condition is stable.. only 70% of the tumour is removed. i hope things will be fine.. i hope for the best.

such excessive luxuries

gosh.. can you believe it? i was just telling faizal the other day that both my tuition kids got new laptops from their parents.. one of them is 16 the other is 12.. the younger one was supposed to get her laptop only next year but obviously she’s not going to settle for none if her sister was going to get one.. anyway.. todaay i found out that the mum gave the maid her old laptop! so now.. even the maid has a laptop! so if i were to count.. they have 4 desktops and 5 laptops.. and there’s only 4 of  them in the family excluding the maid..

that’s not all.. today the elder daughter went for prom.. she took the whole week off from tuition to prepare.. its not as if its a wedding.. her dress.. cost $600.. this excludes the accessories that she matched with the dress.. and her hair and make up easily comes up to about $200… oh my!! some people just have all the luxuries!! i wonder what’s her wedding gonna be like.. i know that her elder brother got married at raffles hotel.. that out to cost a bomb! but of course to people like them… it’s ‘peanuts’

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